I think my life is about struggle on finding love right now, on the bottom left are the trees i have planted the past decade.. dating, married, fatherhood which I didn’t get to enjoy even though i spent lots of time, energy, and money to grow them. Top left is the passion for music i grew more the past few years, from singing, to guitar and cajon, which i am very thankful on the community and mentors I have met this year.
On the center is the desire deep down for love and belonging.. and overlaying it is a big question mark, Christ will always be in the center, but is Christ enough? and why I do not feel enough? On the right represents 2 directions I am struggling with, gay relationship represented with the rainbow color with FCC as the bridge… but will i able to find relationship that lasts? will i find belonging in this community? is gay relationship for me? or back to traditional family again bottom right, but am I denying my sexuality again? am i not repeating the same mistakes?
Even bigger in the center is the cross, I am still trusting Jesus and His loving sacrifice in the cross, let His love continue to be the center of my belief and I hope to experience more and more of His love in this life, directing and guiding me through this struggle.